This past Saturday, I had the opportunity to chat with my WeightWatchers® leader, Jocelyn. I shared with her that I’ve been feeling stuck lately. I have really been struggling to get beyond my 95lb milestone.
I shared with her that for the past few weeks, I’ve been sabotaging myself on Friday nights for no apparent reason. I come home and I’m on the hunt for anything and everything to eat. And, I find my way to the fiesta size bag of Mission tortilla chips that I always have in my house. And 90% of the time, I manage any temptations to over-indulge and binge on them. The problem is, when I do have those temptations to binge, they’re there. (And hallelujah if there’s also a block of cheese or salsa in the house too!)
For months (and, more accurately, probably years!), she has encouraged me to not buy the tortilla chips. Every time she told me this…
I always found an excuse why it was okay to buy them: “I can manage them for the most part.” or “I’m getting them for my boyfriend.” Yaddi yadda yadda.
And then, on Saturday, I shared with her for the first time another reason why I felt like I always wanted to buy the tortilla chips. I shared with her that not being able to bring certain foods in my house and control myself around them makes me feel WEAK. I don’t ant chips or any other food to have that kind of control or power over me.
Jocelyn then said to me that was so profound and it really helped change my thinking about it. She said, “Choosing to not have the chips in the house doesn’t make you weak. It makes you smart.”
So, I went to the grocery store today and I walked right past the chip aisle. I am choosing to do this not because I’m weak. I am choosing to do this because I am smart and I’ve got goals to crush.
Thanks, Jocelyn! ♥