No Longer Waiting for the Pandemic to End

“Is our desire for the end of the pandemic a desire to reestablish not just our day-to-day routines but also to return to all the distraction and noise that allow us not to think about the meaning of life? This is not to say that the pandemic is a good thing, but it’s an opportunity to ask, what if the thing you’re waiting for never arrives? What if instead of waiting, you act or think differently instead of trying to go back to the way things were?”

My dear friend shared this quote from a Yale professor named Shane Vogel from an article in The Atlantic entitled, “What If the Thing You’re Waiting for Never Arrives?”.

It’s such a powerful quote, because I think so many of us are desperately wanting the pandemic to end to go back to lives we once had. We are even grieving a life, routines, friendships, experiences and things we once had. The pandemic has changed a lot of things for everyone.

This quote has got me deep in thought about what this new life is for me and how I’m adjusting to it. How I think so much of my desperation in wanting this pandemic to be over has been that with it comes a return to a life I once had. Things I loved and enjoyed but which certainly kept me busy and constantly on the move without much time to really sit and be with myself. But the truth is, many of the changes that came with the pandemic are now here to stay.
I no longer get to see my bestie in-person each week at my WW meetings. I have not been traveling for work and enjoying trips with my coworker in far away fun places. I no longer regularly get to see my gym wifey and many of our kickboxing friends on a daily basis each day before work. My time with AB has been limited due to job relocation and busy schedules. I also have new commitments to these 2 adorable fur babies I took on and let’s not forget I got into grad school. A LOT OF CHANGE.

It has left me with a lot of time to myself and to work through my shit. Or at least attempt to. And truthfully, the pandemic ending isn’t going to fix or resolve most of those things. At least for the foreseeable future.

So finding a new way of managing and working through this life as it is right now—today. Letting go of the hope and desire to control things and working so hard to get them back to the way they were and avoiding the life left ahead of me.

I cannot wait for the pandemic to end. I must move forward and, for now, I am grateful for my health, a career I love and enjoy, and a new and challenging adventure taking on grad school. And I’ve got so much support from the friends, family and loving partner by my side to help get me through it. 🙏🏼❤😭

You Deserve What You Accept

My last entry was November 2019. To say that a lot has happened since then would be an understatement. I won’t get into all that’s happened here, but what I wanted to share was this. In a recent class I sat in on (also a MAJOR thing that’s changed!), the professor went over and she mentioned this very powerful message that has been really sitting with me ever since.


Too many people live their life blaming everything and everyone for where they’re at. Their parents. Their jobs. Their addictions. Their exes. Their financial situations. Their baby mama/daddies. Their traumas. Their kids. The government. The President. The past President. The past. The pandemic. ALL 👏🏼 OF 👏🏼 IT 👏🏼

It’s all an excuse to live your life miserable, alone, unhappy, bitter, jealous and nowhere near where you are capable of being. Well, I’m here to tell you that if you accept that, then you deserve that kind of life. 🤷🏻‍♀️

Look, don’t get me wrong. Life sucks sometimes and bad things happen to great people. But once you realize that you have the power to change your life and live a life worth living, you will take your power back and you will finally be free of this victim cycle.

One of the most powerful quotes I ever had to free myself from being stuck in one of the worst situations of my life was: Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional.

What will you decide to accept for your life?

New Weight Watchers Program #myWW

TODAY IS THE BIG DAY!  WW (formerly Weight Watchers) released its brand new program, which now gives you an option to choose between 3 different programs based on your preferences, lifestyle, and needs.

I had the opportunity to preview the program for a few weeks and have decided that the program for me (for right now) is the Blue Program, which is the same as the WW Freestyle program.

For me, I loved the zero point food options on Freestyle and did not seem to have an issue with the reduction in daily points or overdoing the zero point foods.

My biggest observation between previewing the programs is this: WW works if you work it.


What is your #myWW?  I’d love to hear.  Also, if you’re not sure or you have questions, check out the links below:

💚 Green Program FAQ

My Battle with Binge Eating

I have been wanting to write about the topic of binge eating for a while now, because I know that it’s something that many people struggle with—myself included.

Even though I have lost a significant amount of weight and have a great deal of success on Weight Watchers and have, over the years, maintained much of my weight loss, I still struggle pretty consistently with binge eating.  I struggled with binge eating prior to my weight loss journey (which is why and how I got over 300lbs in the first place), but I have still struggled with it throughout my journey as well.

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Showing Up for Yourself.

show-up-for-yourself-healthyhapachickI am going through a coaching training program that’s been truly amazing.  It is helping me build skills that will directly impact my everyday job, which involves consulting and coaching attorneys, but I am also seeing how this impacts my everyday life.  How I communicate with people and how I can take the skills I’m learning to impact potentially everything that I do.

Today, I had to do an exercise with some of my other coaching participants.  It involved being a coach, a participant or an observer.  The participant had to set up a problem he or she had and the coach and observer put together a metaphor that would then guide the participant to a potential “Aha!” moment, relating the metaphor to the problem that they had.  The goal was to have participants utilize real-life problems, so that the exercise was authentic and genuine.

Having struggled this past week with a few things, I had my problem ready to go.

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